I'm bLeSSed...

i just love this pic, i don't know why, it just makes me smile.

i just love Foster at the bottom looking like the Christmas story boy.

i love Bridger's gigantic smile.

i love Mike's face, who is just so happy playing with his boys..

i'm so blessed..

this child has no fear

there were 13 year old kids who would'nt go down a huge hill with a jump.

Bridger jumped on his sled and took off down the huge hill and hit the jump with air.

he had the greatest time of his life.

the kids looked at him and said "Holy crap little guy, your crazy!"

yep, that's my boy!
(ps: this isn't the huge hill, i didn't get pictures)

fosty heading on his way, and loving it!






it's good for me to get out.
even though i struggle.
it's very worth seeing my kiddo's having a blast.



SMALL TOWN FUN

we visited Mike's bro and his family

we had a blast
i just love small towns
here is why:
there is something about the people that i just love
they are humble
everyone knows everyone
they are easy going
not materialistic
simple

carharts and wranglers are fashionable
they have fun outdoor activities

i loved when i lived in a small town

bowling with the kids
great entertainment
kids LOVED it!

crash

painting in the snow

bridger's masterpiece

A little update:

i am feeling about the same.. they are still not certain if this is all from lyme disease... so again i'm being tested for a million other things. it's a little frustrating, but also i know i'm so very blessed. i've realized how wonderful my family and friends are.. honestly i can't believe all the phone calls, emails, dinners, watching my kiddo's, cleaning my toliets and house(thanks liz!), and just all the prayers. i'm so grateful...i cry often, just thinking about all the wonderful people i have in my life..thank you!

wAtCh OuT jOkER

We're going to get ya!

(i love Robin's one eyed stare down:)

ImaGiNatIoN
I was resting in the other room and heard Bridger working on something, so I decided to check it out.. He strung tape across the whole room, so his superhero's could hang on something.

love these boys

Foster famous head stand he does all through out the day when he is bored..

(Star girl, Flower girl, and Robin)

Face painting is a favorite in our house. Bridge's cousins got in on it while they visited. Thanks to Miguel our artist!

CHRISTMAS O9

all i want for christmas is to be with my family

and

i got it!

Bridger loved wrapping Fosty and I up... honestly this entertained the boys for an hour!
Christmas Eve with the Ostrander Cousins
cousins break dancing together

hottie Erin(Mike's sister)

Uncle James and Foster

brothers enjoy hot cocoa

Foster loves his Aunt Charlie

Christmas morning. Bridger checking out all the goods.. He screamed when he saw them all.

Papa setting up the rollercoster.

foster could careless about the presents.. he just wanted chocolate!

the best present Santa could've brought.

Uncle Eric and Aunt Tag gave Bridge a new costume!

Horray for me.. I'm sure this will be the costume for the month that he will wear everyday..

To- My Boys

I know life has been different this last little while.

I'm sorry you've had to see your mom go through this trial.

It's been hard for me to not be able to do what I use too.

You've both been so patient and forgiving, it's true.

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It's actually been good to not rush around for once.

It's been good to stay home with you two wild boys and get punched.

It's been fun using our imagination and pretending to fly to the zoo or moon.

I'm glad Bridger made me Bat-women and that I can fight the Joker while I lay down on my petoot.

You've shown me the little things in life are the greatest.

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Bridger I know your worried about me quite often.

Your so caring and have such a kind soul.

Your encouragement and love has been helping me heal.

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Foster i love your little mumbled language you speak,

but what's amazing is you say "Jesus" so very clear I can't believe!

That makes me smile and weep.

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You've both taught me I need to be better at forgiveness.

You forgive in a instant when I say or do something i shouldn't.

All I have to do is say I'm sorry and give you a hug,

And your smile returns like the Son above.

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Bridger your so smart, kind, sincere, and happy.

Foster your my cuddler, adventurer, food lover, and easy going cutie.

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Our trials in our lives will make us so much stronger..

My 2 precious sons.. You are what is keeping me going!

I love you!

Mom

Verdict is in!!!

i just found out i have

Lymes Disease!

i know it's insane people!

Really who gets Lymes disease??

But

at least i now know what the crap is going on with my body.

It's going to take a while to be healed, and i may never be healed fully,

but at least we are on a step up to helping my body.

Thanks again for your support!

Love ya all!

Really if you ever have health issues and the doctors keep sending you to other doctors. Make sure you keep fighting for your health!

You are the one who knows your body.

Tis the Season!

sledding with the cousins

This is what happens when MOM(me) is a little out of it! I laughed so hard looking closely at this picture..

1st Fost is quite entertained playing and hiding in dirty clothes

2nd Bridge has his underwear on backwards

3rd Mike is sewing the batman costume!
It's just so fun piling things on brother

this kid loves hiding!

some good in-home entertainment
pulling each other on the sled

our beauty of a tree
and the balls sweater..
need i say more??

bridger's sleeping partner

i'm always in need of a good Girls Night Out!
It was a great night spending time with high school friends
Thanks Ded's for hosting.

Christmas party with our neighbors
i sure love my neighbors
i feel as though i've known them forever


gingerbread house with grandma..
our house ended up falling apart
so we did the best thing we could do
eat it!
love it

favorite of the season

foster saying ho ho ho!

My stud of a man cutting down our trees

Temple Square

i didn't last too long walking around

but it was worth it

i love the lights and the Christus!
Mike enjoying hot coco and Gary(our neighbor)

watching the nativity scene

Bridge running wild with his best buddy Rykes!

By the way- Thank you all for your support with my crazy sickness. I truly love you all!

Merry Christmas!

random thoughts

-i witnessed a miracle this last week-

A friend had a heart attack and wasn't supposed to live.

i have been praying so very hard for him and his family..

Pleading with the Lord that he would be saved.
i remember praying so very hard for my nephew baby Paul the same way,

but i new deep down in my heart Heavenly Father had other plans for Paul.

We still miss him deeply, but we know we will meet him again, and we can't wait!

Thankfully Heavenly Father gave my friend another chance at life..

how happy i am for him and his family!

i couldn't be more grateful for the Gospel right now..

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-laugh off all the dumb stuff because in the end it doesn't really matter-

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-i don't want anything for Christmas. i really don't... i just feel so grateful for all the lovely people in my life... and of course our Savior!

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-oh how i miss having good health-

i sure took it for granted before..

Even though i have a little junk in my trunk and some flab,

i felt pretty darn healthy 4 months ago.

It's been pretty crazy these last 4 months.

i miss having the energy to do what i need for my kiddos

i don't love telling people about this stuff.

Hopefully in January, we will get some better answers.

I have an appointment with top doc at U of U neuromuscular center.

Unfortuantely they are months booked out.. so i've been waiting and waiting

They are supposed to be the best..

we'll see!

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-realized how extremely lucky i am to have mike as my husband..

honestly he has saved me this last little while!

when he gets home he takes over

by cleaning, cooking, loving the kiddos, and making me laugh..

love you miguel!

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-i need to have more patience-

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-my 2 boys are so wild-

but so much fun

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-i can stand whining from 1 child, but when both are whining i feel as though i could burst-

i just tell myself "breath jami... breath!" or i go to the other room and scream!

sometimes i feel like i'm taking crazy pills! he he

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-i'm done judging people.. you never know what they are going through in there lives.

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i love laughing and of course my diet coke with lime

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-sorry for boring you with my randoms..

i'm sure many don't care..

but it's for my record!

Cheers!